If you follow me anywhere on Social Media you’ve noticed the past several months I’ve been on a journey to a healthier, fitter version of myself. I joined an amazing support system and, in my opinion, family and I’ve experienced an amazing physical transformation so far.
So, how did I find this new, healthy lifestyle? I was lucky enough to stumble across a couple on Instagram who dedicate their lives to helping people improve their own lives. They truly are an incredible couple and while you should definitely check them out that’s not the point of this post.
In addition, to be online fitness coaches they have a daily podcast called, “Myers Mindset” and the focus lately has been all about happiness. They are on a mission to interview 1,000 people in attempt to discover the meaning of happiness. I told you they were incredible!
I promise, I am getting to the point of this post, stick with me!
One day, as I watched their Instagram Story flash by they asked their followers “who is the happiest person you know?” My initial reaction was…ME!
But then…that little voice inside (the metaphorical 2×4 I seem to carry around inside my head) started chiming in. To begin with, it asked, who am I to say I am the happiest person I know? Conceited much?
Then it began to point out all the cracks in my life; past & present.
Someone with a life long history of anxiety & depression cannot be the happiest person you know.
Someone who has insomnia and only gets a full night of sleep 50% of the time cannot be the happiest person you know.
Someone who has already been divorced & remarried by 31 cannot be the happiest person you know.
Someone who needs to see a therapist on a semi-regular basis cannot be the happiest person you know.
Someone who is struggling to have a baby cannot be the happiest person you know.
Someone who can count her friends on one hand cannot be the happiest person you know.
Someone who had to grow up a bit too fast as a child cannot be the happiest person you know.
That stupid little voice has been the background noise for such a large portion of my life. Its talked me out of so many things; not just my happiness but my worth and what I deserve in general. I am SO quick to tell someone else how worthy, beautiful and inspiring I find them to be why do I have such a hard time telling myself that?
This morning, as I was driving to work and listening to the latest installment of the above mentioned podcast something clicked.
I am the happiest person I know and it’s okay to say that. I know myself better than anyone…so, it’s a logical conclusion. On top of that, Travis & I are the happiest couple I know, and again, it’s okay to say that because I know us better than any other couple.
I am a happy. Not just today or right now or because of anything specific. I’m just happy.
Even more, I’m happy in spite of my challenges.
Anxious days, sleepless nights, infertility challenges, spells of loneliness…they all might change my “mood” but my mindset stays with happiness.
I’m the happiest person I know. I hope you are too…and if you’re not, I hope you find the strength today to change that.
Thanks for reading!