….or not do it. I used to think of the word “anxiety” was attached to all sorts of negative connotations; I was absolutely obsessive about avoiding anyone associating the word anxiety with me…because, you know, I was anxious. These days, I realize that so many more people understand what it’s like to be “anxious” (for the record I encourage every single one of you to do your own research on anxiety because there are so many different versions, symptoms, etc.) and… Read more »

I can’t pinpoint the exact date that my immune system seemed to have had enough of me. I managed middle school and high school with minimal absences – most of which resulted in my parents jetting off to vacation and leaving my Grandma & Grandpa in charge…so I wouldn’t call all of those “valid”. I attended the University of Iowa and spent time in communal bathrooms, large lecture halls and dining halls filled with thousands of other students and suddenly my… Read more »

The truth? I’ve been avoiding this blog. The list of things I have done instead of clicking “Publish” is endless and a little bit concerning. This space scares me. It’s a summary of a girl I used to be, or at least the girl I thought I was and the life that went with it. A good life, just not the right one. A life that, sometimes, I have to convince myself even existed; full of memories that can only be… Read more »

I’ve been terrified to write this. I’ve stared at the screen for several hours every week for many weeks willing the perfect words to escape my fingertips, willing the black letters on a white screen to come together in such a way that everyone would understand. “Ooohhh,” they’d say, “that poor girl, she has always meant well, even when she destroyed people.” Today, I realized, there is nothing I could write, no rhetoric that would make sense to everyone….no such thing… Read more »

Humans…each of us, bring our own pasts and our own personalities into every relationship we encounter. I bring fear, lots of it. Fear of abandonment, fear of loss, fear of watching a person slowly drift away. Truth be told that has been the story that accompanied every relationship I have ever known in one way or another. Even if the person came back…at some point, they left. I’m not trying to make anyone feel bad for me….no, instead….I’m trying to… Read more »

Life is so fucking weird. If there is one thing I learned in 2014…it’s that. Life is weird, and what’s worse? Is it, or God, or whatever higher power you might believe in is absolutely calling the shots. You are not really in control of hardly anything. Kind of a horrible feeling, amiright? There is one thing, though…I feel like we have all been granted control of. Telling the people we care about…just how much we care about them while they… Read more »

You guys…this has been like 3 years in the making. Ever since I bought this house I stared at this perfect little space that was to be my very own office. Unfortunately, I never made the time to really fix the thing up. The walls were tan…the carpet was tan…and the furniture was old. It was the least attractive room of the house…and yet, I expected to come there and find inspiration. I didn’t. As a matter of fact, I… Read more »

For those of you who hadn’t heard…2014 hasn’t been my easiest year. Like, at all. Unfortunately, this blog suffered because of it. I spent a lot of time writing for myself…instead of everyone else…and I just never found much inspiration to post here. I’ve missed it immensely. I’ve missed the chance to interact with my readers and my followers. I’ve missed reading your comments and your emails and your advice. This space makes me happy. So I want to come… Read more »

I’ve spent my entire life doing exactly what I am supposed to. Always what was expected of me. My life was perfectly molded around the people I loved. My days began and ended with this thought: “what can I do today to make everyone around me as happy as possible?” I’m hoping that most of you can see how unhealthy that sort of behavior is…I hope you can identify what was missing. I never once asked myself: “what can I do… Read more »

I’m not doing a really good job of keeping up with life lately. Which is strange, because….life has been much more manageable as of late. I guess I’ve just been so busy enjoying it…that I haven’t had much time to write about it! The good news is….I’ve got some FUN posts scheduled for next week and I’m getting back in the blogging game! But for now…I want to share some of the things making my Friday extra fun! Photo booths…. Read more »